New beginnings..i hope

(random blabberings mode:on)

With the end of my NSF life, and the beginning of university life, i can't help but think: is this a new start of everything? Will i be burdened by my past?(i will definitely still be bothered by NS. dammit)Will things go according to what i hoped for? One thing true about life is that there is no definite walkthrough to it, and every seemingly insignificant action might have an effect. The butterfly effect or chaos theory, it seems to be. Already my NSF life had destroyed what i had planned for, my ideals, and in a good way, my naiveness towards life.

Point 1: I really do believe that effort equals to desirable results. Anyone can work hard towards his ideals, goals, or even simply desires, and he will get it. Even a simple portion will do. The world, however, isn't so charitable. From what i had seen, sadly to say, the fact of the matter is effort does not always brings about the sweet fruit of success. Luck, or some say karma,fate,destiny,whatever word one may assign to the divine intervention of the higher living forms, is in play. Simply put, Luck ^ Effort = Results. You can put in a lot of effort and it can just a waste of effort. It is true conversely. What to do? Suck thumb and start blaming your god. You can start to change religion.

Point 2: I really do not believe in destiny. Till i met people borned with a fucking diamond spoon in their mouth. Or people with brains that are just out of this world. In a good and bad sense. In the race of life, people do not start at the same point. As again, you can start blaming your god.

Point 3: Equality is good and beneficial to the masses. Bullshit. Inequality is the way to go. Step on the other people who are trying to crawl their way up. Dramas aren't real. Get real.

Conclusion: Some things in life are inevitable. Some things aren't. Be optimistic. It is the only way to feel good after getting out of a shithole.

I digress. Anyway i had forgotten why i post in the first place. So i wish to all couples a Happy Valentines Day.
(Well definitely i will feel jealous when i see couples walking hand in hand. Especially when i am with a group of guys loitering around the arcade, the DDR section, fast food restaurants. To Hell with anti-single movements. They are just sour grapes. Having someone to cuddle, bitch, fight, accompany, beats none. I will get that elusive someone someday.)