what is not meant to be, will not be

sigh,

what will not be mine will not be.
weeks and week of longing, but it ain't gonna be happening
screwed up plans, hopes dashed
and i could only blame the world

one step at a time, i guess

Bo Sch

Yeah and it has been a whopping 2 weeks after my internship has started. I guess that the working environment at Bosch doesn't seem too bad, but I can't really judge since this is the first time I am working at a MNC. However, I do realised the security within is quite tight..

Anyway, after 2 weeks of lobo-ing i might have more work coming up. Supply chain management is a rather interesting concept. To be able to efficiently divert resources to maximize customer satisfaction, along with reduce time lags and what-nots, to reduce the inventory cost due to stock withholding, transportation cost while maximizing revenues - all that is so much different from the stuff i am studying. I guess managing stuff is just much more fun than dealing with inanimate objects and equipment (SEM,TEM blah blah).

And after a HTHT session with fellow MSE peeps, there are much more stuff to be done and experienced, but to summarise: males are dense creatures.

A New Chapter ?

I guess I had come to a new stage in my 4-year long undergraduate life.

Away from the mindless numbling studying, lab work, tutorial cycle certainly helps in relieving my study fatigue - I hope

Really long for the 3 months of study break during internship, followed by SEP. Somehow I feel that this semester is the longest of all - Modules taken (essentially) by myself, coupled with negative emotions, and of course module mapping/sep registration. Looking back, didn't really figure out what have I really accomplished.

3 more papers, and 5 days to go! Tomorrow will be better!

2/5

At the point of writing, I have 3 more papers to go! 3 more papers and yet I feel like caving in, giving up and not revise anymore. All the memory work is driving my mind close to saturation point, coupled with some other unwanted untimely thoughts which i ought to leave till after my exams are over.

Tried studying in school, not as productive as I imagine, which is to be expected as all my problems dwell within my own mind....(at least, better than at home)

Felt extremely stupid glancing at the phone every now and then. Avoiding and longing at the same time...Lying to myself, perhaps

Irregular sleep patterns dominates and a short attention span w.r.t to notes and tutorials

Just want to have a break from everything, snug up and read a book, Starcraft II the entire day, or to finish up the amassed TV/movies and not to worry about any consequences

But, I know I would regret not putting in effort.

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STARCRAFT II: roar!

PS: exchange confirmed! hooray! :D now to worry about $$$$