the irony of dreams.

Ok I admit that maybe it wasn't just #3; i just put in a random number as #1 doesn't really look nice. I have no specific topic about what i am about to say yet i didn't want the title to be a blank/didn't know if blogger allows blank titles, so..

One thing i really want to say is that, BETTER BLOODY HELL TREASURE(HIGHLIGHT UNDERLINE BOLD) YOUR SCHOOL YEARS! cuz the working life will be a fucking bitch to deal with. After seeing my senior and colleagues doing OT and Ot and ot ot ot ot ot ot for a month( myself included), i can't help but think: what's the point of all this?. True, you can't survive without money but so? Does having a lot of money makes you happier? Isn't life about what you think you should do , about what makes yourself happy, about what you do to make yourself and others happy? Money can only give your mere material satisfaction. Everyday I see working adults on the bloody packed train, everyday i see glum faces( though i can see that whenever i look into the mirror), and everytime i can sense the gloomy mood within them. I wouldn't want to be one of those drones, mindlessly spending their youth /would-be youth/expired youth on things that 99% of them doesn't like to do. But to stray apart from this path is a even treacherous rockslide. I wonder what i would i think if i become into these drones someday. Sigh.

2nd, I wonder how many people can be honest with themselves. It may seem easy, but i definitely find it freaking hard myself. Lying seems to be the easy way out. In what Edison mentioned, doing what your heart truly wants to do, whether is it to praise people, to reject people , or simply to hate someone, isn't that easy to do. ( on a side note, being appreciative of what other people had done and saying it out is pretty sweet. and that is something that i am trying to accomplish. and that is something edison can do will do and always do) Embarrassing? Yes i would say so but feeling embarrassed and not doing sth you know is correct , sth you know deep down you always wanted to, is simply denial of yourself and a very big waste of time. I dunno what the hell i am pointing out here but to simply summarise, to hell with what other people are thinking and do sth you truly desire.

3rd. Happy belated birthday to jy the "extremely-metrosexual-guy(or some might beg to differ)" and of course Nagasawa Masami !!